OH and I attempted to give myself a warm water salt flush after I saw that I hadn't lost anything, and all that did was make my mouth dry. I did EVERYTHING correct. 1 Glass of Soup Warm water, and 2 Tablespoons of Salt. NOTHING! What a bullshit idea. Then I decided to drink a glass of milk, because I'm a bit lactose intolerant so I'm hoping that'll clean me out. Right now I've just got terrible stomach cramps. I'm going to buy some laxatives this afternoon when I go with my mom to the doctor. Hopefully that'll give me an edge. I need something that's gonna help me start fresh. I think what I'll do is take 2-3 laxatives tonight, fast the last of the 10 days of the Raw Food Diet, and then possibly attempt Raw Food again after the 10 Day Fast.
I REFUSE TO LET MYSELF BE A FATTIE ANYMORE!
I kind of feel like I shouldn't have peaked at the scale when I promised I'd ONLY weigh in on Sundays, but I needed to know if I was going in the right direction. It really makes things different. Like, say I lost weight, I'd probably still eat Raw, but I'd cut out dinner to push myself to lose more. But since I haven't lost shit, it just makes me want to cut out all food.
BULLSHIT!
Intake:
Canned Pears, Cup of Noodles, 2 Bowls of Cereal - 1/26
I think I'll watch that video on YoutTube, about the 2 girls on BBC who try to get to Size Zero by trying all of the different anorexic diets. One of the girls is my height. I love seeing girls that are my height lose a lot of weight because it helps me fantasize about how skinny mini I'll look when I make the weight goal.
Real Girl Thinspiration tonight ladies.
Ciao, Fiona.
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